Confessions from an Ashamed Mom
I have a confession! So many of my mom friends have commented on my work with Family Made Simple, have applauded me for a job well-done and have said "I don't know how you do it". Or "you seem to have it all together". I thank them but inside feel a little ashamed.
Yes, I may seem like I do it all...work-full time, keep a super clean house, cook most nights, admin Family Made Simple facebook page and blog, and am a dotting mom and wife. Don't get me wrong; I'm proud of all these accomplishments.
However, at times, I feel ashamed and I feel as though I'm just going through the motions.
I know I'm a darn good mom and wife but oftentimes, when I should be focusing on time with my baby and husband, my mind is elsewhere and I don't feel fully present.
I'm either thinking about future blog or Facebook posts, what I need to add to the shopping list, how I have laundry sitting in the dryer that needs to be folded and put away...blah blah blah.
I was recently listening to the radio and the lyrics to one of my favorite Matthew West songs really hit me. It was like I was hearing it for the first time~ "I don't want go through the motions...." .
I no longer want to go through the motions. I want to make a point to take in every moment with those I love. I want them to know how much I love and appreciate them, not from my words, but through my actions!
It may be as simple as playing "tea party" for the 100th time with my 3 year old or watching the Red Sox with my hubby (but NOT have the laptop or phone on).
When my little one talks to me, I will look her in the eyes and let her know I'm paying full attention to what she's saying. When she says something, she will not have to repeat it because I'm not staring down at my phone.
From this day forward, I will try to limit the times I say "not now", "go play" or "hold on" to my precious preschooler. She will only be 3 once. I don't want to look back and feel as though I missed these innocent moments.
This is my confession and promise. What is your's? Share below...
Yes, I may seem like I do it all...work-full time, keep a super clean house, cook most nights, admin Family Made Simple facebook page and blog, and am a dotting mom and wife. Don't get me wrong; I'm proud of all these accomplishments.
However, at times, I feel ashamed and I feel as though I'm just going through the motions.
I know I'm a darn good mom and wife but oftentimes, when I should be focusing on time with my baby and husband, my mind is elsewhere and I don't feel fully present.
I'm either thinking about future blog or Facebook posts, what I need to add to the shopping list, how I have laundry sitting in the dryer that needs to be folded and put away...blah blah blah.
I was recently listening to the radio and the lyrics to one of my favorite Matthew West songs really hit me. It was like I was hearing it for the first time~ "I don't want go through the motions...." .
I no longer want to go through the motions. I want to make a point to take in every moment with those I love. I want them to know how much I love and appreciate them, not from my words, but through my actions!
It may be as simple as playing "tea party" for the 100th time with my 3 year old or watching the Red Sox with my hubby (but NOT have the laptop or phone on).
When my little one talks to me, I will look her in the eyes and let her know I'm paying full attention to what she's saying. When she says something, she will not have to repeat it because I'm not staring down at my phone.
From this day forward, I will try to limit the times I say "not now", "go play" or "hold on" to my precious preschooler. She will only be 3 once. I don't want to look back and feel as though I missed these innocent moments.
This is my confession and promise. What is your's? Share below...
Guilty:( I have had to set strict 'phones off' times because it was getting out of control. I hate that when my phone signals that I have a new email or message, Margot would bring me my phone so I can check it. Not anymore though. She knows that when I'm with her, my phone only matters if it's Papa calling:)
ReplyDeleteThank you for this Tessa. XOXO
Wow! This is what me and my wife feel too! It's so tough to say "not now" especially during "work times."
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